Of Inspiration.

I looked for inspiration in all corners, hoping something would strike the melancholic chords within. The desperation for just a blur of words became a growing obsession, much detrimental than I supposed. And one random morning, when the seeker in me decided to give up, did inspiration flood in. Little did I realize it came from my own work. The former glory that defined me, put me back in that fire. I felt it right in the pit of my belly. I knew it was back for good. Stronger and more powerful. The words just flowed and flowed. It felt like an endless river of thoughts just waiting to be heard.

They spoke of undying love and passion. Of dreams unconquered. Of hopes so strong. Of lives so beautiful. Of relations so perfect. It was the golden epiphany I always hoped for. The fear of losing it also went away, just as if a wisp of wind had taken away all my troubles. My world was whole again. The empty ink bottle and blotting paper lay no more silent. Those ugly noises left. I felt renewed, rejuvenated...and just so complete.

Pristine White.

There was ambiguity in her reflection

The clear waters seem to bluff-

They hid a tale amidst soft waves,

The sort told in the epoch of caves.

Clad in soft, pristine white

Silky black hair falling on her face;

Her expression seemed calm and knowing

A life of love and happiness showing.

Renewed.

I haven't been writing much. In fact, I haven't been writing at all; except those moments wherein I've tried to squeeze out all my creativity to only land up with something demeaning and dark. Guess it was indeed a long drawn phase of unnecessary withdrawal..but now, it's time to take complete charge of myself, and my life. What I always stood for and believed in, has been completely washed away in the past 8 months. My life has changed in such a large manner, that I can never really identify with who I am. While I still watch myself slowly float out of this indecisiveness, a few things about me are clearly for the keeps. :)

PS: I've completely changed my blog style. I want my blog and my writing to reflect on who I am, not on only the negative aspect of instances in my life. There's a lot I'm taking out of life around me, but sadly not giving it the sort of importance it deserves.

You've got to embrace the change.
Stand up for yourself.
Fight the system.
Love a lot.
Live crazily.
Feel happy.
And above all, never ever in the process, lose your true identity. :)

Go On, Smile :)

It takes a while for one to realize that they themselves hold the key to their own happiness. We often believe that making others happy, being there for them as their pillar of support during dark times is our own way of finding that bit of eternal happiness. 

This myth is so strongly engraved into our value systems, that in the true test of times, we fail.
We fail miserably. 

No one, but us, hold the key to the secret chamber of our happiness. We need to know what is it that makes us feel good about ourselves, as human beings. 
If one cannot truly love himself, he's never going to be happy.

You need to enjoy your own company. You need to feel full of radiance..and eventually, better things fall into place. 
Its the law of the land.
Man was born a little selfish. Society made him care, but not at the cost of him losing his own identity!

We are like spices. We add a little flavor to the food, even though we get a little lost..we stand out. Why?
Because each of us are different. 
Each of us are masterpieces of a well-crafted entity. 
Each of us, are US. 

So go out there, add a little bit of yourself and make the world a culinary genius. :)

Because Happily Ever Afters Do Exist

She walked lightly over the freshly cut grass, her fingers intertwined in his. He smiled looking at her twirl her hair around her finger, as her gleaming eyes stared at their reflection in the still river waters. She smiled.

They had been through a lot, not together, but individually. Each had their own share of ups and downs. Each had lost a lot, on the way..and somewhere deep down hoped for a person to bring back part of their identity. A part, they had buried in the depths of the past.

This wasn't any movie-type romance. Nothing of the "love at first sight" sort. They had known each other for years, but never really bothered..until events brought them closer than ever.
They soon realized they couldn't do without each other. Days felt incomplete without meeting, and nights seemed faded, without those long, random conversations. Everyone saw the obvious, except them. They lived in oblivion to reality.

...Except that one day, when Fate decided it was time. They knew they had fallen. Fallen so truly in love, that nothing could stop them. They were perfect.
He knew how to look after her, and she knew how to handle him. They were open and honest. Nothing ever tore them apart. The World knew it was meant to be..

Despite many changes, their loved stayed constant. She'd fall more in love with him, each time she saw him smile. As was it with him.
They had the perfect life.
Blissful and happy.

Turning towards him, with large thoughtful eyes, she knew the time had come. He pulled her a little closer, and moved her hair off her face. Smiling he pulled out a large diamond ring, and went down on his knee.
She thought it was the end, but contrary to her belief, it was a new beginning. He wished her to be his bride.
She accepted.

Tears welled up in both their eyes as they embraced each other in a passionate kiss. They felt the warm air surround them with a feeling of security of a happy future.
They were one, and would always remain one.

Who Am I?

I'm on this never ending quest, of looking for inspiration, for knowledge and for hope.
I'm out in this big world, searching and discovering the greatness that lies within the boundaries of fear and the unknown.
I'm a traveler on an unknown path.
I'm a sailor on the rough seas.
I'm a dreamer, with a million dreams.
I'm a girl, who hopes to be seen.

I have seen the worst of days, wherein my world spun around like a crazy tornado. People changed. Times passed. Situations went awry and nights seemed long.
But still, that tiny voice inside, never did let me shatter.
Disappointments came, lingered for a while and went.
People came, made themselves count, pretended, hurt and left.
But I, I stood strong.
I held my ground.

I've learnt to forgive, if not forget. After all, you can forget things people say, but not how they make you feel. I've learnt that the one person who builds you up, is the one who breaks you down. And that things never go as we expect them to, despite of which, they bring forth better days!

So I dance in the rain.
Run through the pain.
Sail rough weathers.
And fly like a feather.
Let my instincts guide me,
Show me the light,
Bring destiny to me,
And smile through the night :)

Life..

Life feels so good sometimes. Like everything is in place.
Happy and perfect.

Even those chilly mornings which make you want to snuggle in bed all day, make you feel alive. You get up earlier than before, just to enjoy the whiff of the cold mornings.

Even tasks and chores don't feel like a pain. You do them with as much enthusiasm as singing to your favourite song on the radio.

Routine journeys that felt boring, are now avenues for making new friends and understanding people.
Your family and friends make you feel loved.
Small things that you once considered annoying, become lessons you learn from.
You find happiness in simple things like a child's smile, or a teachers compliment.

Your goals and dreams feel like they're already achieved.
You feel like you're at the top of the world.
You're at the zenith of your achievements.

Its then you realise that feelings built you up, and you can achieve more than what you think you're capable of.

Believe, and all is yours :)